IT'S BEEN AWHILE

It's been over a month since I last posted. I had planned on getting you up to date when I got back from my vacation. But a lot has been going on. It's been very stressful so this got put on the back burner. I will give you a quick run down and I hope to go into more details in the next few days.

vacation....florida....fun
boss....cancer...not fun
work ....catching up...why did I go
birthday party....wonderful
sleep....not much

I'm Smiling

After a very rough time of it, the evening turn out wonderful. My girls kept calling and checking on me and tonight we all went out for pizza. Afterwards Amanda and Brandon came back to my house. We got some yard work done, garbage out, and he fixed my washer. YAAAAAAAAAA no more 6 hrs to do a load. We have all been under so much stress and it was coming out all over the place. I guess I was taking it all to heart when it wasn't meant for me. They where just venting and I was holding it all in. I feel so much better, at least for now.

I just got done talking to Step and seeing how everything is going for her. 10 more days and we head to Florida to see Rich. I know she is excited and so are the kids. I'm looking forward to also. Well I'm going to go take my shower and have pleasant dreams.

Why Not Me

It's been a couple of rough day, I have been very depressed and crying at a drop of hat. I feel like I'm in the way with my kids and they seem very impatient with me. Like I'm being blamed for something or everything. Or at least that is the way I'm feeling, like a fifth wheel or something. I have talked to both of them and they have assured me that is not the case, but I can't help how I feel. It just seems like every time I try and help, I get yelled at. I know that they are not necessary yelling at me, just yelling because they are stress at the moments. I guess I'm just taking it to personal right now. All I know is that I'm so tired of doing this alone with no one for me to lean on. I really wish at this moment that it had been me to pass away first instead of Brad

It's been Crazy

I know it's been awhile but it's been crazy around here. Working and trying to help out the kids and keeping up around here. I'm getting ready to go to Florida in 2 weeks. My son in law has been working down there for a couple of weeks now and we are not sure when he will be home so..............road trip time. I'm going with Step and the kids. Florida in the summer...I must be crazy. But while I'm down there I will get to see my nephew and couple of good friends. I can't wait for that, it's been 5 yrs since I last saw my nephew and I sure do miss him.
I had a very busy Memorial Day weekend. Got the yard looking better and some of the weeding done. Rich finished building my new flower box and it's half filled with dirt. I have to get some more, and he got the pond cleaned out and going again.

Brandon is coming down this week and helping me get some more done. I hope he can get my washing machine working better.
This weekend I spent Sat. with Amanda and the kids, then I took the boys to the movies. I was a very relaxed weekend

OH I forgot to tell you about the deal on blackberries we found. Meijers was selling them for .50 a half pint. Needless to say we all bought a lot. Amanda made jam, Step is making pies and I making a crisp and freezing some. They are so good.

The Sun is Out

It's Monday and the sun is out, and before this week is over we will be yelling that it's to hot. I think only in Michigan can you go from frost to heat exhaustion in a day. No kidding, last week low was in the 30's to 40's highs 60-70, now they are forecasting 90. No one is ready for August temps. But what can we do, so lets enjoy the sun for now and pray that our AC works.

I went to my grand kids party on Saturday. Step had all 3 kids birthday party at the roller rink. They had so much fun. Even Rich (who had never roller skated before) put on a pair and gave it a try. He didn't do to bad, no spills or anything. But on the way there, I stopped at a burger place and picked up a cheeseburger. By that night I was so sick, I was in bed or the bathroom most of Sunday. I'm better today, at least I'm at work. So next weekend I hope to get the yard work done that I didn't get done this weekend.

I went to the free clinic on Friday for a check up. I don't get it, the Dr. there this time said my sugar levels where great, but he increased my meds. Then he asked about my BP, I gave him the info and I asked why it would drop every now and then. And again, even at the lowest he said I have great BP, and again he changed it. Then we had words about my arthritis meds. He didn't want me taking any because of my sugar and it could cause kidney damage. After much arguing, he wrote on my chart that he was giving them to me against his better judgement. But he increased the amount. Now can anyone figure that out. Some day I hope to go to just one Dr. I just have to wait until I can get some medical insurance. And I won't saying about what the government is promising. As if I would believe them.

Recital

The recital was great. Madysen was in four different dances. I liked the last one best, she didn't. That one was more ballet and the others where tap & jazz. She continues to amaze me as she grows. She is really getting very good. I'm so proud of her.
Boy I started this one a week ago, but have been so busy I never finished it. So here I go. I do enjoy watching the little ones dance, they are so funny. But I wish that they would cut down on the instructors that dance. I would say that takes up 50% of the recital. I mean we go to watch our kids and grand kids, right?
And speaking of grand kids, I swear that grand daughter of mine can not keep her feet still. I'm willing to bet that she even dances in her sleep. I was walking behind her the other day and sure enough she was dancing all the way down the walk. She makes me tired just watching her. Even standing still her feet are moving. Maybe some lead weights would help.

THE FUNK IS GONE

Well the funk has lifted. Last night after I got home I was on face book, IMing with a dear friend. Well we got to laughing so hard at the plans we are making concerning Lola. And if you don't know Lola you should check out her blog. Where is Lola now, we have so much fun with her. So after a good hour of laughing and then continuing on this morning at work. I can say the funk is gone. Lisa told me she had been in a funk herself. So the funk must have been going around. It's still cloudy and it's suppose rain tonight and the rest of the week. But on the bright side, it's also going to get warmer.

I will let you know how the recital goes tonight.