It's Sunday and has been raining most of the day, and like the day my mood is the same. I'm very depressed this weekend. I don't know why unless it's because of my knee hurting so badly. I haven't been sleeping well because of it. Nothing has seemed to work to make it feel better. I have no energy, all I want to do is sit or sleep. I feel like I have wasted the whole weekend.
When I woke this morning for some strange reason I reached for the phone to call my mom. Boy did that one surprise me, she will have been gone 11 yrs this March. It just goes to show that know matter how long it's been, it's still there. The emptiness. So I guess this is how it will be for the rest of my life.
Last night Amanda called and told me about this Great Dane that was given up. Sent me pictures, she is absolutely beautiful. I found myself wanting her, but what would I do with her. This morning I found out that Amanda is going to keep her. I'm glad but at the same time sad.
No not a good weekend.