LAST NIGHT

Last night I sat at my desk and watched a bunny eating grass in the back yard. It was so peaceful and he was so relaxed. I'm so in aw of nature and all she has given. I could say it goes back to my wildlife rehabber days, but in all honesty it started when I was a little girl. My parents always said that I would drag everything home during the day but I would let it go before nightfall. But all of the animals and flowers are just about as perfect as can be. It's time's like this or when I'm in the woods that I'm so taken back by the beauty of it all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY OLDEST DAUGHTER

Thirty Three years ago today I started down the path of motherhood. I can't believe it's been so long ago. It's seems like a blink of the eye. I have enjoyed it so very much. I'm proud to be her mother. I was lucky enough to have two beautiful daughters and I was able to stay home and raise them. I wish everyone could be as lucky as I was.

So here is to you my wonderful daughter, who is a mother of three. Don't blink because before you know it they will be all grown up. I love you

Happy Birthday Morghan

Today is my youngest grand daughters 5th birthday. I can't believe it. She will be starting school this fall. I have a close bond with all my grand children and I think that they are the best there is. But Mo is the only one that I got to deliver. Yes, you read that right, and no it was not planned that way, and no there was no Doctor. Amanda went into labor, went to her Dr. who said it was the early stages to go back home and rest. Well by late afternoon she decided it was time to head into the hospital, so she called me at work and I left to meet them there. After much waiting and walking, they decided it was false labor and sent her home with a sleeping pill to help her relax (ya right). So my husband stopped to get the meds and I took them on home. In the mean time Stephanie dog got lose and killed Madysens pet rabbit, so Brad went over to bury it. Now the fun really starts, it wasn't false labor and she wanted to push NOW!!!!!!!!!!!I call Stephanie and told her to get over here and to send her dad home NOW. So while Brandon was on the phone with 911 getting instruction, I got to be the first one to lay hands on her. The EMT's pulled in as Morghan came into this world. The sight of my baby grand daughters head cradled in my hands is indescribable. It's a moment I will cherish forever.




So much has happened to us in the last five years, some good, some not so good. But this is one memory that I will never forget.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART

IT'S BEEN AWHILE

It's been over a month since I last posted. I had planned on getting you up to date when I got back from my vacation. But a lot has been going on. It's been very stressful so this got put on the back burner. I will give you a quick run down and I hope to go into more details in the next few days.

vacation....florida....fun
boss....cancer...not fun
work ....catching up...why did I go
birthday party....wonderful
sleep....not much

I'm Smiling

After a very rough time of it, the evening turn out wonderful. My girls kept calling and checking on me and tonight we all went out for pizza. Afterwards Amanda and Brandon came back to my house. We got some yard work done, garbage out, and he fixed my washer. YAAAAAAAAAA no more 6 hrs to do a load. We have all been under so much stress and it was coming out all over the place. I guess I was taking it all to heart when it wasn't meant for me. They where just venting and I was holding it all in. I feel so much better, at least for now.

I just got done talking to Step and seeing how everything is going for her. 10 more days and we head to Florida to see Rich. I know she is excited and so are the kids. I'm looking forward to also. Well I'm going to go take my shower and have pleasant dreams.

Why Not Me

It's been a couple of rough day, I have been very depressed and crying at a drop of hat. I feel like I'm in the way with my kids and they seem very impatient with me. Like I'm being blamed for something or everything. Or at least that is the way I'm feeling, like a fifth wheel or something. I have talked to both of them and they have assured me that is not the case, but I can't help how I feel. It just seems like every time I try and help, I get yelled at. I know that they are not necessary yelling at me, just yelling because they are stress at the moments. I guess I'm just taking it to personal right now. All I know is that I'm so tired of doing this alone with no one for me to lean on. I really wish at this moment that it had been me to pass away first instead of Brad

It's been Crazy

I know it's been awhile but it's been crazy around here. Working and trying to help out the kids and keeping up around here. I'm getting ready to go to Florida in 2 weeks. My son in law has been working down there for a couple of weeks now and we are not sure when he will be home so..............road trip time. I'm going with Step and the kids. Florida in the summer...I must be crazy. But while I'm down there I will get to see my nephew and couple of good friends. I can't wait for that, it's been 5 yrs since I last saw my nephew and I sure do miss him.
I had a very busy Memorial Day weekend. Got the yard looking better and some of the weeding done. Rich finished building my new flower box and it's half filled with dirt. I have to get some more, and he got the pond cleaned out and going again.

Brandon is coming down this week and helping me get some more done. I hope he can get my washing machine working better.
This weekend I spent Sat. with Amanda and the kids, then I took the boys to the movies. I was a very relaxed weekend

OH I forgot to tell you about the deal on blackberries we found. Meijers was selling them for .50 a half pint. Needless to say we all bought a lot. Amanda made jam, Step is making pies and I making a crisp and freezing some. They are so good.